Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts

Thursday, December 20, 2012

A family of 2 is a family of 2

I was watching this movie last night, about a kid who lives with his depressive mother...worried about his and her well being he figures 2 is not enough, they need a back-up to feel safe. And he goes into this quest to find that or those backups. I sometimes too feel vulnerable, and worry if anything were to happen to me. I always ask Luca what would you do if mommy were sick and I couldn't talk to you and tell you what to do. He has a drill down, he knows the things he should do, and I hope we never have to be in that situation, but if we do, we both can get the right help. I feel very fortunate to have a lot of close family that even though they live far away, they feel very close in the way they "watch" our everyday lives. I know not everyone is that lucky! But sometimes I feel, that being a woman with a child, we are only considered half a family, even though we are a full family to my eyes. I am the decision maker and I am the commander in chief, and just like if it were 2 instead of one of us, things work out just fine. It is good to have a backup but not having it, is alright too. Our family is complete.

Ayer estaba viendo una peli, sobre un niño que vive con su madre depresiva...preocupado por el y por ella decide que 2 no son suficientes, que necesitan a alguien mas para sentirse seguros. Y empieza a buscar ese o esos repuestos. A veces yo también me siento vulnerable, y me preocupo de si algo me pasase. Siempre le pregunto a Luca que haría si su mama se pusiera malita y no le pudiera decir que hacer. Tiene una serie de pasos a seguir, sabe lo que debería hacer, y espero que nunca estemos en esa situación, pero si lo estuviéramos, los dos conseguiríamos la ayuda que necesitásemos. Me siento muy afortunada de tener a mucha familia cercana que aunque viven lejos, nos sentimos cercanos por la manera en como cuidan de nosotros en el día a día. Se que no todo el mundo es así de afortunado! Pero a veces, siento que siendo una mujer con un niño, somos considerados como una familia a medias, aunque según yo, lo somos al 100%. Soy la que toma decisiones, la jefa de estado, y como si fuéramos 2 en lugar de 1, las cosas funcionan bien. Esta bien tener un repuesto, pero no tenerlo, tampoco esta mal. Nuestra familia esta completa. 


recien banhado

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

What life has in store for us

Have you ever wondered what life had in store for you? I sure never did, and I was surprised to learn it wasn't anything that I could have possibly imagined. The opportunities our parents give us set the stage.  Then it is a matter of the times you had to live, the place where you happen to be and some has to do with your own personality. As a kid I was quite an introvert. I always got along fine with everybody, but it was hard for me to be outspoken or noticeable amongst large groups, I tried not to stand out. But things don't work well like that. You end up missing out a lot if you don't speak up, even worse, you end up doing things you wouldn't do in the first place and you end up not liking yourself. I was lucky enough to have a family that allowed me to have a lot of self-confidence and supported me in my little endeavors, and when it came time to make major life decisions, they were all for everything I said. I think things through, a lot, but as soon as I make up my mind, then there is no way back, I know what I want and somehow I start my way to that final goal.

Os habéis preguntado alguna vez que os espera en la vida? Yo nunca lo hice, y me sorprendo al saber que lo que he vivido nunca me lo hubiera imaginado. Las oportunidades que nos dan nuestros padres nos preparan para lo que viene luego. Luego depende de la época en que naciste, del lugar donde vivías y también depende de tu personalidad. De niña yo era muy introvertida. Siempre me llevaba bien con todos, pero me costaba hablar o dar mi opinión o hacerme notar en grupos grandes, intentaba pasar desapercibida. Pero las cosas no funcionan bien así. Acabas perdiendote mucho por no hablar, aun peor, acabas haciendo cosas que no harías en primer lugar y acabas no gustandote a ti misma. Yo tuve la suerte de tener una familia que me permitió tener seguridad en mi misma y me apoyo en mis pequeños proyectos, y cuando llegaba la hora de tomar decisiones importantes, estaban de acuerdo con todo lo que yo dijese. Pienso las cosas profundamente, mucho, pero en cuanto me decido, ya no hay marcha atrás, se lo que quiero y de algún modo empiezo a encaminarme hacia mi destino.

I love telling the story about how a night out during college having fun, drinking, dancing and coming back home really late followed by an optional exam the following morning set up the stage to the path my life eventually took. I failed that test, badly. And I had to make an extreme effort to pass it later on in the finals, so much, that I got the highest grade in the class, and my one and only A (in my undergrad  degree it was rare to get an A). I always believed that after finishing college, I was accepted to do research in Brazil because of that particular grade, since the topic pertained to that subject matter. And Brazil opened up so many doors in my life. In Brazil, I was told there that my life would be tragic, that I was going to have tough and exceptional moments in my life. I didn't understood what those spiritual people meant back then, but now I know. As I look through my life from the distance with some perspective, I can see what they meant. Good thing I didn't take it too seriously because I would have lived scared all my life.

Me encanta contar la historia de como una noche de juerga en la universidad, de diversion, bailoteo y alcohol y de volver a casa muy tarde, seguida por un examen opcional a la mañana siguiente, preparo mi camino para lo que luego seria la trayectoria de mi vida. Suspendí el examen, terriblemente. Y tuve que hacer un esfuerzo tremendo para aprobar mas tarde en los finales, tanto fue así, que me saque mi único sobresaliente (en mi carrera era muy raro sacarse un sobresaliente). Siempre creí que tras terminar mi carrera, esa nota fue la que me dio la oportunidad de ganarme una beca para ir a Brasil a hacer investigación. Y Brasil me abrió muchas puertas en mi vida. En Brasil, alguien me dijo que mi vida seria trajica, que iba a pasar momentos duros y momentos excepcionales. No entendí en su día a esas personas tan espirituales, pero ahora lo entiendo. Mirando hacia atrás mi vida y desde la distancia y con una perspectiva, ahora entiendo lo que me dijeron. Menos mal que no me lo tome muy en serio porque hubiera vivido asustada toda mi vida.

Today, I am still looking for my path, I have a passion for what I do, I feel this is the right path, but I still evaluate every moment, and make sure that every decision I make, will lead me where I want to go.

Hoy, aun estoy buscando mi camino, tengo pasión por lo que hago, y creo que este es el camino correcto, pero aun evalúo cada momento, y me aseguro de que cada decisión que tomo, me llevara donde quiero llegar.


Thanksgiving 2012